This Is Why

I started teaching eighteen years ago. Since then schools have not changed, administrators have not changed...

and students have not changed. Kids still respond well when they are treated with respect. They still need to know that they are not in charge and that there are consequences for their behavior. Kids want to know that there are adults who care about them and who are looking out for their best interests.

By Wednesday I had all three classes on an even keel and headed in the right direction. The two major disruptive behaviors in the afternoon class were removed from the classroom, which gave me the opportunity to set the tone and get to know the rest of the students.

That was the same day that the vice principal told me that I was who I portrayed myself to be during the interview. He sounded surprised.

After three good days, I was told today that the disruptive students will return to my classroom next week. I advised against this move because the students in the afternoon class are focused on a project and working well together. I asked for another week for students to work on their projects, which would also give me time to cement expectations and the good feelings that come with success.

It's not up to me. I am just the classroom teacher.

This is why I did not want to return to teaching.

I have been spending nine to ten hours at the school each day, not because I am being paid to do that but because that is what I needed to do to get a handle on the job, the classroom, and the curriculum.

And, like so many years ago, it makes no difference. I can wear myself out, but it doesn't matter. I wanted things to be different but they are not.

So I will go into school later, come home earlier, and take better care of myself. This is just a job.

I want it to be more, but it's not.

This is why I didn't want to go back to teaching.